In the beginning...

The kit arrived just 2 days ago, and like a little kid, I tore into the boxes, eager to find what was inside.  Even though I already knew what was coming.  I ripped into the new spices to smell and sample, and opened everything because I am curious kind of a person.

This is in direct contrast to how I am feeling about this plan right now.  Because, you see, the guide arrived in my email earlier than the kit so I read it all in one sitting, nerves growing with every page.  Its not that the plan is hard looking - I guess it makes sense from a nutrition perspective.  It is that it is so foreign from how I currently eat that is making me nervous.  Yes everything can be customized and there is a list of things you can trade for if you see something you don't like.  But I am reading the recipes and seeing things my brain goes "no" to.  Oatmeal? yuck. yogurt? double yuck. quinoa? never tried it by itself but I'm pretty sure I don't like it (and yes, I recognize that this is an absurd statement). cottage cheese? no thanks. healthy foods? bring back my boxed mac and cheese please.

Now, I know the way I eat isn't healthy - too much fat, too many carbs, way to much processed and ultra processed and brown or white foods.  I know this all to well, and its not that I don't like fruits and veggies, cause I do, I just got away from eating them.  And I know that I need to change.  I just didn't know how much I needed to do so and how urgently.

See, yesterday the doctor called me in regarding the results of some tests I had last month.  And the answers weren't good.  A specialist is being added into the mix but basically...I need to change, I need to change now and the world just gave me a massive swift kick in the ass with a healthy dose of fear to make me really commit to this.

So foreign healthy food, here I come.  I'm going to try this, and well...heres looking at you 2016 as the year I finally change for good.